This Is Me, Unfiltered, And Raw!

Hi! My name is Lauren. This is me, unfiltered, and raw. Maybe with a little left over makeup on from the day before.

I am a mom who struggles with feeling like i am a good enough mother. I struggle to find balance.

Some days I am a complete basket case and struggle to get through it. I am exhausted. I feel inadequate at times, and I struggle with comparison, a lot. I struggle with meeting new friends in the place that I live because i am afraid to put myself out there in fear of rejection or persecution.

I am a wife and I want to believe in myself and love myself as much as my husband does, when most of the time, I don’t.

I workout because i know its what is good for me not necessarily because i love it. Some days I miss a workout. I eat cookies, and pizza, and chips, and french fries and Chick-Fil-A a lot more than i should but i do my best to eat healthy and do what works for me. Sometimes I have a soda. I like to cook and share recipes. But i don’t always cook or want to cook.

I don’t have it all figured out. I am not a robot. I am not a professional photographer and i have wrinkles on my face. I have lose skin on my belly and spider veins on my legs.

I do things by the seat of my pants and am completely disorganized. I am late to everything and I shop impulsively for things I don’t need because sometimes it brings me, for a moment, a sense of joy. I procrastinate on everything which is why I am always late.

I am super emotional and take things super personal. I create a vision of how things should go in my mind and they often don’t ever go that way which leaves me seeking more.

I sometimes use a curse word even though i don’t like too. But that doesn’t make me a bad person.

I sometimes am challenged by my faith but that doesn’t make me a non believer.

I am addicted to the hustle and it takes me away from the things that matter most. I have mommy guilt.

Some months i barely scrape by with the bare minimums in business. I have leaders guilt.

I make mistakes. I am not perfect. I am always seeking whats next and not experiencing the blessings right in front of me which is ultimately holding me back in life.

I am a Mom, A Wife, A Servant of the highest king, a teacher, a mentor, a friend, and a Leader of leaders and that is enough. I don’t always feel like enough or good enough but I AM! I am enough.

My life and my story is different then yours and thats okay but we may be the same in a lot of ways and we just don’t know it because we don’t speak our truth. These are the lies I tell myself about who I am and my truths at the same time. We need to stop telling ourselves lies and start speaking more truths to ourselves about who we are. We are all strong, beautiful, capable women. We need to start believing that and deciding that we will be those things.

‪#‎speakyourtruth‬ I would love to hear it.


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