I actually got this news last night but it didn’t really hit me until now.
I am siting here playing with my daughter and I started to cry. I was just looking at her and thinking back to where we were this time last year. We had just moved away from everything and everyone that I knew. Life was totally unrecognizable to me and I was feeling so down and uncertain about the future. I turned to my business to help keep me focused and connected. We were doing better financially but still not financially FREE. We had things piling up on our plate and we were taking hits one after the other. Usually it is a rule of 3…Well we were at 8 working our way to 10.This is morbid and negative thoughts but it is a realistic conversation I have with myself and my husband. What would I do if I had to go at this alone?One of the things that drives me is thinking about how badly I want to be able to provide for my family and give them the life the deserve if anything were to ever happen and I had to do it on my own.Last year…I wouldn’t have been able too. This time last year we needed a new car and I couldn’t even get approved on my own for a loan let alone with my husband. I couldn’t even get a cell phone for myself without him. I was completely dependent on him for money & credit. My income didn’t count since I had only been working for myself for about 7 months. This is a horrible feeling. After watching several of my friends lose their husbands to terrorist and war or car accidents & sickness It shook me up thinking…”what would I do if that ever happened to me”?
As I sit here today I can’t help but be amazed at what a difference a year makes. I know that now I could go and buy a house on my own if I wanted and I can completely provide for my family on my own if I needed too. I pray I NEVER have to but I know that I could. THIS is a feeling that is EXACTLY my WHY. This is WHY I work as hard as I do and why I have put my heart and soul into what I do and into helping other people.
Nothing will mean as much to me as this feeling right here. To me this is success. I may not be as high of a rank, super large challenge groups or have as many Success Club points or even make as much money as other people but to me…The happiness of my family and the comfort in knowing that they are provided for is all the success I ever need. That and knowing that I may have helped even just one person start to believe more in themselves and their ability to create happiness in their own life.
I will continue to strive for more as I believe that is what God put me here for. I believe that he is doing his work through me and I have to give the credit and the Glory to God. Things started to turn around when I surrendered to him and began to pray for everything and stop worrying about things.Who can relate to this? Any of my stay at home mommies feel this way or ever felt this way? You can change your situation. It takes time and building a career out of whatever your passion may be. Decide what you want to do, what you love, and commit to turning it into something BIG!! Surround yourself with people in person or online that will support you and help guide you along the way. I couldn’t have done it without my team and still can’t. You can do it too! You have to WANT it